Happy New Year...SURPRISE!

Happy New Year everyone!  Hope you survived the crazy, but wonderful Christmas season.  I am always a little bummed when the holidays are over.  There is so much build up and anticipation, then before you know it-it's all over!  However, I am more than happy to say goodbye to 2011...not the best year for us to say the least.  But we have hope for a wonderful 2012.  This is where the "SURPRISE" comes in- we are having a baby!  HOORAY!  Due date is August 10th, so still a long ways off.  I am very excited, but also experiencing a lot of other emotions: anxiety, relief, dread, and something I can only explain as unworthiness??

Part of me is just so relieved that we get another chance, we get to experience all the joy that we are missing with Taytam.  I know our loving Father in Heaven doesn't work this way, but I also kind of felt like maybe He wouldn't give me another chance since I had 'messed up' so badly with Taytam.  I know that's not really what happened, or how it works, but I am still working through some feelings of guilt about her passing away.  Anyway-I am also feeling dread and anxiety about what an obsessive-crazy person I am going to be once the baby is born...will I even be able to put the baby down? I haven't held a baby since Taytam-I don't trust my emotions with that.  So, I can't wait to hold my baby and just take in the feeling of their warm little body, that new baby smell.  So much to look forward too!  But I also can't imagine not watching the baby constantly to make sure he/she is still breathing, still with us.  I think that once we get passed the 2 1/2 month old mark (when Taytam died) I might be able to relax a little?  I guess we will just have to wait and see how it all goes.  There is just so many more emotions with this pregnancy and baby than I have ever experienced before.  It is pretty overwhelming.  But like I said, I am so super excited, and that emotion still wins out over all the rest!

New Years Eve

 We spent New Years Eve with a bunch of family at Ryan & Shannon's house.  The food was awesome, but the company was even better.  This is Stockton and Uncle Moto-Moto showing Reese how to play a game on the iphone.

 Grandma Sandy loves having her picture taken :)  with Alesha and Brecken

 While the boys ran around having Nerf gun wars, the girls painted nails

Uncle Moto-Moto and Reese...so cute!

Can't believe another year has come and gone!  Good riddance 2011...Hello 2012!

Happy New Year!

Wow, I can't believe it is 2008! How time flies! This year Danny turns 30, I turn 29, we will have our 9 year anniversary, but we have known each other for 12 years! Seems like only yesterday he swept me off my feet- he he he! We had a blast last night ringing in the New Year. It was the usual game night with friends while the kids play & stay up WAY too late. We played a new game called 'In a Pickle' which was pretty fun-it made you think outside the box. Then we played 'Loaded Question'-it was hilarious! My brother-in-law Ryan is one of the funniest people I know & lets just say that thanks to him I will never look at Hitler the same! :0) We laughed a lot, ate too much & since we are old married farts-we had a hard time staying awake for the ball to drop. But we made it-Hooray for 2008! I am actually one of those people who like to make New Years resolutions, & I figure if I write them down & say them out loud I will be more likely to stick with it. So here are my resolutions (in no particular order):

1- Patience is a virture. The best lesson my children can teach me.

2- Temple attendence. I guess we better go get our bar codes!

3- Scripture study. If I read the scriptures HALF as much as I read everything else-I would be so much better off!

4- Judge not, lest ye be judged. Too bad everyone can't be 'perfect' like me (of course I am being sarcastic here!) :0)

I think that about does it for this year. Obviously there are about a million other things that I really need to work on, but these are the major highlights. My list looks about the same every year-how sad! Well, I better go get the kids some breakfast. How come they never sleep in even when they stay up till midnight?! (they get that from their dad!)